When I received the email with the new exercises I read that they were harder, but when I looked at them I said to myself, "I got this." But they really were harder. For me it all comes down to the extra ab workout. I can do all the other exercises to the max and with little time in between. But once those abs start then the struggle begins. I can get through it all but I pretty much collapse afterwards. I guess that's a good thing. I don't feel bad afterwards just a little worked. Again I'm assuming this is a good thing, and without it I'm sure I wouldn't survive the future exercises.
I'm dealing with some drama in my life, and the reason I don't want to blog about it is because I don't really care that much. My life is moving forward and to have things from the past coming to me and trying to bother me is kind of useless. I'm focused and have goals that I want to achieve. The first being PCP. I can't exactly look into the past right now, and some people think I'm avoiding things, but I'm not. The future looks bright and the past is foggy. I guess I should mention it a little. My ex-girlfriend basically threw me to the side and it ruined me for awhile, but I'm completely over it. She keeps showing up to my gigs and it seems like everyone is uncomfortable about it except for me. I don't care though. Anyone has to right to go anywhere and it doesn't bother me. I'm just happy to be playing well at the gig. People say that she wants to be friends but I don't want to. I've got to focus on myself and being good to my real friends. With all the stuff going on in my life I just don't want to deal with it. I'm nice to everyone and shouldn't have to deal with something that I'm not concerned with. I guess the only reason I'm saying any of this is because PCP has allowed me to focus on improving my life and I don't want to stop and turn around. I'm happy with the way things are going and I don't want that to stop.
Eating has become a routine. I don't even think about eating other things. I'm basically a robot with food, and I eat the diet plan without remorse. Seeing that makes me believe I'll definitely continue it after the 90 days.
This is all good news. You'll find that your mood settles into a nice level "content" when you get your food right.
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great outlook, stu! the past certainly has a way of nipping at us every once in a while, but it sounds like you've got a good focus: you! that's definitely where i'm at, too. thanks for letting it get a little personal. typing into a screen sometimes feels weird for me, but remember we're out here to help each other along! hugs, nat
ReplyDeleteOther people trying to insist on making you part of their drama: annoying. I feel the same way about the food being robotic almost, but we have to find some joy in it, too. Let me know where you find it!
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